Monday, June 30, 2008

Last week Tan sent us a test  to get a freelance job as a childrens'comic colourist.I was not really that interested back then,but i took the test and sent it in anyway.Now I really wish that I could get that job.I think I need to look for a part time job sometime.Having cash of you own is a good thing.


I don't think I will get the job though.For one I think I might have missed the dateline.Tan was not very specific about the dateline.He said by last week,and I sent it in on Saturday 3 or 4pm.He sent us the blank test on Thursday night mind you.But it still might be late if the dateline actually means last week,working hours.Which would mean Saturday 12 noon.

back in form 3,my mom doubted whether i really had interested in learning to play violin.Then,she said I wouldn't have enough time.Fair enough.After PMR.Then it's SPM.After SPM,it's college.So now I am having quite a free term,and next term will be free too,or so i heard from seniors.So I asked my mom again,and this time the answer is "There's inflation,don't waste money"


Which would sound quite funny and ironic to anyone besides me.

I really dunno when I can finally learn to play at this pace.Just understand that I can only get more and more busy and inflation will always be there unless someone suddenly gets the idea not to depend on petroleum anymore.We have the knowledge to use other sources of energy,hello?

Fate is very strange.When I was a kid,my parents asked me if I wanted to learn how to play organ.I said no,i still don't want to learn organ.But the fact remains that if I took up music then,I could have branched out into other instruments.

In highschool,almost all of my classmates knew how to play at least one instrument.One classmate could play quite a lot,piano,drums,violin and a few others I forgot.The thing is that I'm not too sure about whether a few of them wanted it as much as me.Ok,fine,I know I sound like a bitch now.But it's true that they were forced by their parents to learn music when they were young right?Most of them genuinely like music by now,but some of them have interest in totally opposite genres from what they learnt.

And here I am.Genuinely like instrumental/classical/operatic/boring shit what the hell does this girl listen to that crap for, and I am not allowed to learn.

OK,venting over.I'm just really angry right now.I've waited for 4 years and now my mom tells me to just forget about it.

Stupid question # 457:How to act lame

First of all...let's get things straight.


Practice makes perfect.

Ohhh khai?

Got that?

Ohhh khai!

Next,what is the biggest source of free information available?Internet right?

Got that?

Ohh khai!

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The point being that I've finally resorted to online study to learn a bit of information about playing violin.Not seriously expecting to be able to play of course,that's just sad.But just so I have some basic information to satisfy my curiousity.

The thing is that I've wanted to learn since form 3,but my parents always say that I don't have enough time,maybe it's true also,but if I think that way,then when will I finally have enough time to learn? I'm going to be in the art line ok...more specifically the animation line ok...can just dream on.I will only get even more busy until the day if and when I finally become a filthy millionaire able to go on not working for the rest of my life.

Somemore.

Inflation happens.

On hindsight I should have gone into the art stream at high-school and concentrated more on art and whatever I wanted to do.All that science and math is by now forgotten,so what's the use,prolly if I was in art stream I would have attempted to become that 1st term guy in figure studies class who everyone thought was a 3rd year student,including the lecturer.And I would have definitely learnt music to my heart's content.

So much for thinking that mingling with the lazy art stream students would do more harm than good.I still think 80% of them were hopeless bums,but eitherway with self discipline everything would have been ok.

Up till then,donations of money or spare time is greatly appreciated.


My mom asked me this question again today:"You can handle staying by yourself or not?" .This question came about because my parents are planning to go to Australia next January to visit my sister and help her take care of her soon to be baby.I cannot follow,because of college,and they will be there for 1 month.


Actually the question of looking after myself is long overdue lah,because actually my parents are supposed to be like totally globe trotting by themselves now,but up till now i'm still tagging along,feels quite paiseh also,especially since travelling is so expensive nowadays.(btw my parents saved a total of RM800 by buying their Aussie air tickets earlier on before the petrol price hike.The price to fly to Aussie is crazy now,and don't even think of flying to UK)

So back to the original story...

I thiiiiink I can handle gua...driving is no problem,I will have full usage of the family car.The main problem is probably food.Since I'm like a total cordon bleu chef.My mom plans to pre cook some dishes and store them in the freezer.But I somehow don't see that supply lasting for 1 whole month and still tasting the way it was meant to.Cooking vegetables should still be no problem.The most difficult is when it comes to meat.First of all I need to prepare small 1 person portions or at least 3 meals portions.And secondly I don't think I would dare to cook some chicken.It will probably turn out burnt/tasteless/too salty/messy/plain embarassing.And most of all,I'm scared of hot oil.That fear is not baseless ok,I know how it feels like to have hot oil splash on you arms.

So there will probably be 2 alternate endings to my 1 month adventure:
#1:I will end up looking like Ronald McDonald's sister after giving up and resorting to fast food/TV dinners/mamakcoffeeshop food made of highly suspect ingredients.

#2:I will look like one of those war torn country starving children you see in national geographic magazines.

I'm quite paranoid about food quality.It's not really that true that what you don't know can't hurt you,if what you don't know is chemicals leaching into your food and unsafe levels of mercury/lead/colouring/msg/preservatives/salt/sugar/3 months old reused  oil/pesticides/insecticides/herbicides/homicides and missing fingers.

So my back up plan is to buy easy to prepare food like bread/sardines/tuna inna can/cornflakes/oats etc.I'm quite used to this plan since those kind of food is what I go for when I stay up pass midnight.

I can so totally see #2 happening.

Which might be a good thing.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Click on the picture for a better view.

As promised,my styrofoam cup guy.Yes,it's a guy.It was originally supposed to be female but I decided that things could be a bit more interesting.

zomg wtf...I just found out that I passed up the wrong resolution maya file.Me and my International Standards competent short term memory...the ginseng tablets are so totally working for me.Jason is so totally going to scream loudly.


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Anyways,in other news,I just came back from a buffet dinner with my aunts.Sort of like a belated Father's Day thinggy,since I so gracefully forgot it was last Sunday and somehow thought it was supposed to be this Friday.I think I forgot when was Mother's day last time also,but at least I was 1 week early that time.

Sohs,the buffet was at Midvalley Citadel's Citicafe.My uncle got 50% discount from his company,so it was a real bargain.RM25 per person,i think in Pyramid you can only have noodles and a drink or something.The food was ok lah,Asian/seafood/BBQ food.Nothing classy like XiaXun punya standards.The roasted lamb was very good.My dad liked the oysters,but I can't get used to the raw unidentified fishy paste thingy taste.And my dad is someone who cannot stand eating sushi.As usual like jakun only,i overate until  cannot move comfortably.But I think other people also do the same thing in general.It's a natural human response to take advantage of such situations.At the end of the evening i could see Fat People all around me.

Which makes me remember the first time I went for a buffet.I think it was Hertz Chicken buffet.They called it 'all you can eat chicken buffet'.Makes me wonder what happened to all the 'eat as little as you can buffet's

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One more piece of news for the day.Xia Xun just got a blog!!
Spam him immediately if you see any chatbox on his site.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Ah Yeen's adventures in Hospital-land

2 days ago I had a little adventure. It started like this:


You guys prolly know i terpengsan after gym a few days ago right?I was thinking of monitoring my condition a few days before deciding whether or not to go for a checkup. And then on Thursday evening, 6pm, I suddenly got heart palpitations and clammy hands at college.So I decided to skip Flash class and go home.Later on i persuaded my parents to take me to the doctor the same day because i really wasn't feeling well.First we went to a GP in Subang just for a general checkup.Then the doc there found out that I had high blood pressure(hahah...exactly the opposite of what I thought)and a fever.The reading was 140/70(normal is 100/80.He was asking whether or not any of my parents have high blood pressure because it could be hereditary.My dad has it,so I was getting a bit worried.High blood pressure is generally not a disease for people our age,but in the newspaper just that morning there was a report of a 12 year old boy dying of heart attack,the first in our country.So the doc referred us to SJMC for another checkup.

Next,at SJMC,I got a 2nd checkup by the nurse,and it was confirmed that my blood pressure at that time was high.So they made me wait in the ER for a 3rd checkup by the physician.Waited quite long,and it was not a pleasant wait.

In the ER.
On a gurney with the bars raised cos they were scared that I would faint again.
For like 2 hours.
All alone.
And in the backgound can hear other people telling their symtoms/kids crying/heart machine beeping.

And then I kept on thinking about the first GP saying 'not normal'.

So anyways,the 2nd checkup by the physician.She asked me whether I had any cough/vomiting/diahorrrea/etc.All no.So I had to wait longer for the specialist to check the 3rd time.

The physician had told me that there was nothing seriously wrong with me,so I was less worried,and was getting a bit bored.So I just started to look around the room,investigate the gurney mechanisms,look at the stuff on their shelves...They have a lot of needles in there.I was wondering if any druggy would steal a few or something,they wouldn't know.Then I remembered that needles can be bought at pharmacies anyway.=_=.

By that time I was getting a bit impatient and starting to feel a bit full in the bladder.Next door(ok,fine,behind the curtain)on the left, can hear one guy telling the doc his daughter has a very bad migrain,has been going on for 10 years already.The one in front was a small boy from i dunno what country,presumably getting a lot of injections,because he was screaming a lot and the nurses were all trying to calm him and tell him he's a good boy.One patient far towards the left was a woman who caught a disease while she was in Mecca for pilgrimage.

But the ER wasn't as dramatic as in movies lah.No sudden rushing in of patients with chest torn out and bleeding all over the floor kind of stuff.At last had a 4th checkup by the specialist.Again ask all the cough/vomit/etc questions.Managed to rule out chest infection ,but anyway i was asked to stay overnight to monitor my condition.But first,they took a blood test and stuck a needle into the back of my hand for any drips or injections they might have to administer later.

My parents asked for a single patient room,but apparently it's like a hot product there,so i had to wait until the next afternoon for an available room.Sohs that night I had to share a room with one other patient,which I found out was a Japanese woman.Can pretty much guess tho,because she was sort of talking a bit to herself in Japanese.Not in a creepy way lah,but things like 'okay' or 'what is this...' kind of thing.

Needless to say I couldn't sleep that night.The bed was very hard and doesn't have my homely body smell all over it.And I didn't get a decent blanket until 2am.Which was also the time a nurse suddenly came in and fixed an IV drip for me.She said it was just for hydration lah.But either way it was even harder to sleep with a bigass needle sticking out of the back of one hand.The thing about sharing a room is that you are always afraid of disturbing the other patient.Like if cannot sleep then i don't want to switch on the light to read.They should install blackout curtains or something...And don't want to adjust the reclining bed at night because it creaks.

The next day,the were pretty sure the palpitations was caused by a viral fever,so nothing much to worry about.Blood test results was normal.In the afternoon the fever was gone,but i still had to stay another night to wait for thyroid test results and take another blood test.Took a urine test and that turned out normal also.

Hospital food.Yes,everyone says it tastes horrible.I think it was ok lah,except for their porridge which tasted literally like rice in water.But anything served with soup is ok to me.Because their soup has pepper.And I like pepper.One thing that bothered me was that the food was served in melamine dishes and styrofoam cups,something i've been avoiding since reports about chemicals leaching into hot food.So any hot water sent in styrofoam cups,i immediately poured into my own flask cup.During dinner time,the Japanese woman's family visited her.Meaning her husband and 2 small boys.Nisa would have been thrilled.Especially since the kids were curious and trying to peep around my side of the room.I'm not much of a kid person ,so i just let them be.Besides that there was nothing else much interesting.Nope,no penises in jars and no gay male nurses.All the nurses were female,so i can say my blood pressure readings must have been accurate.

Next day i tried to do some marker assignments but then i discovered i couldn't even open the marker caps properly with a needle-inna-hand.So i convinced myself i was sleepy and didn't do assignments.But yet somehow i ended up markering a face onto one of my unused styrofoam cups.Maybe i'll post the pic later.But that night my needled had payed the price of being forced to work by being numb.

That's pretty much the story of my adventure.Too bad i didn't take any wonderful gruesome pics at the hospital.

Monday, June 9, 2008

Now my parents asked me to take Ginseng capsules because they think I lack energy.I dunno whether it's because I lack energy,i think it's more probable to be because of low blood pressure or something.But either way I think I should stay away from unhealthy food and try to introduce exercise little by little .Before this my method of exercise was,whenever I feel like it only,which is not often,but when I do exercise,i exercise streneously.


The ginseng thing sounds very keng tho.It sounds like some sort of multivitamin from what the label says.According to USRDI standards it sounds very packed with vitamins,100% vitamin B6,100% vitamic C,100% copper,blablabla...I dunno if it will make me more energetic,but hopefully it will just generally make me healthier.Although so far I don't feel any difference.

Last time I used to get dizzy spells(nowadays doesn't happen tho),so I dunno if it's related to me blacking out.My sister said she had dizzy spells before and went to see a doctor.Her condition sounded similar to mine.Could be caused by either low blood pressure,ear infection or shortage of meat intake.But the doctor didn't find out what caused my sister's dizziness tho.

Sunday, June 8, 2008

continuation to the last entry,this is Down once more/Track down this murderer(it's one song).I love the last part,it changes the Phantom's personality from a violent monster to a misunderstood human,something that the recent movie failed miserably at.The video is from the movie but the music is from the original broadway production..I haven't listened to Gerard Butler's version,but I think Michael Crawford did a very empathical job.Just a few seconds of vocals but it changes the whole perception of the audience towards the character.

edit: oh,I just did some research,Gerard Butler was the actor for the Phantom in the movie.I guess his voice is smoother,but his acting did not suit the character.Just not empathic enough.


A review on The Phantom of the Opera

Yes,another music review,this time it's about "The Phantom of the Opera" ,music composed by Andrew lloyd Webber,lyrics by Charles Hart,based on a novel of the same name by Gaston Leroux.There are many versions of it but the one I'm reviewing is performed by Michael Crawford as the Phantom,Sarah Brightman as Christine Daae and Steve Barton as Raoul.

There's one song that I think represents all the characters the best,and that is Masquerade.Here's a youtube link,although the video is just pictures.

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The music is composed wisely and the lyrics are also compatible.The personalities of the characters are very clear,the opera crew seen as self centred-and foolish

Firmin:Dear Andre,what a splendid party
Andre:The prologue to a bright new year
F:Quite a night! I'm impressed!
A: Well,one does one's best
Both:Here's to us!
F: I must say all the same that it's a shame that 'Phantom' fellow isn't here!

while actually the Phantom is in the masquerade observing them,and even showing himself freely as the masked 'Red Death'.

Although the music is very cheerful,the subtle message in the lyrics seems to cruelly mock the Phantom's predicament

Masquerade!
Paper faces on parade
Masquerade!
Hide your face so the world will never find you.

If you know the story,which we studied in highschool literature of course,you'd remember that the Phantom was born with a facial deformation that made him a social outcast and he had to live in hiding below the Opera House,even his own mother could not bear to look at him and made him wear a mask.

Most people do not like literature,but I loved it ,probably because of this opera.I mean,how much can a few pages summary of the original book make you like the story?Even worse if you studied in an environment where indifferent classmates cured their boredom by mocking the characters and when given the opportunity,the opera music that they don't know how to appreciate.The latest movie adaptation was blasphamous.The costumes were ok,but I did not have any feeling for the characters.And Nightwish's version was just superbly lame,like some goth highschool kids on Halloween night wearing fake fangs and plastic jewellery.Nightwish should just stick to their own lyrics,their lyrics are actually quite deep and heartfelt,so they shouldn't do any cover versions.

Anyway,back to the review.

Faces...
Take your turn,take a ride
on the merry go round
in an inhuman race

Masquerade!
Leering satyrs,peering eyes,
Maquerade!
Run and hide,but a face will still pursue you

I think this verse represents the Phantom's loneliness in the world,nobody took pity on him except Christine,but even she was about to desert him for Raoul,and his fate wasn't something he could change,even more after his violent revenges on the opera house crew.

There is a sudden break in the music and it changes to Christine and Raoul's discussion about their secret marriage.The music after this is without vocals but is beautiful and wandering and winding,sort of representing the Phantom following the couple around to spy on them.Before resuming the vocals,there is a short snippet,if you've listened to the whole CD,that part would have mirrored the Phantom's melancholy line proclaiming his love for Christine in his last song;'Track down this murderer'

Saturday, June 7, 2008

You know how they have those small warnings stickers stuck to treadmills that say "Stop exercise if you feel dizzy or faint"?Well...you should listen to that advice.Just now I was only on the treadmill for 10 minutes when I realised that I forgot to switch off my alark clock.So I went back to my unit,and when I was exiting the elevator,i just suddenly blacked out and fell.Somemore i somehow managed to cut my chin.I dunno how also because the floor was just flat.Maybe I landed on my water bottle handle lah...

But it looked pretty dramatic.Here are some wonderful photos I took for keepsakes.T-T...


My bloodstained exercise towel.
I just hope that there won't be too much scarring until I become like Lennard liddet.DX.OK lah,quite rude to mention him but his scar was quite bad right...

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this post was supposed to be about my new haircut.I think you can see how it looks like from the photo anyhow.Maybe I will take another photo from a more tasteful angle when I'm better.

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Hope there's nothing wrong with me.Blacking out after just 10 minutes at the treadmill is not that normal I think.Lol...my most dramatic injuries all come from exercise related accidents,like the time I broke my arm.Woohoo...now I have a consistent record of sorts.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

I was looking for building references for Maya when suddenly I ter-found this thing.Looks damn cool.Here's the link


It's build by Hijas Kasturi,I think they were responsible for the telekom towers also right?
Wah...damn cool company...